Confession . . .

James 5:16
confess your faults one to another, and pray one for another, that ye may be healed. The effectual fervent prayer of a righteous man availeth much.

And so . . .
Confession is necessary for deliverance.

My faith, is new to me. I have gone to church, I have always believed in God, I have not always known what that means. I'm learning that now, and it has been a bit painful to tell you the truth.

One of the hardest things to do in life is to admit your own faults, and to hear that you are doing (whatever it is that you are doing) it wrong. To learn and accept that your actions are the reason for your unhappiness, is contrary to human nature quite frankly. Or rather, it is contrary to human nature before you come into the knowledge of the truth. It is contrary to human nature when you are OF the world, and for a very long time I have lived my life in and OF the world.

That has changed to some degree, but frankly the world (and it's flawed perceptions) has been so deeply rooted in my spirit that I haven't really changed as much as I know is necessary for my deliverance . . . for my salvation.

Well the change continues . . . with confession . . .

I have lied on occasion, not always malicious . . . but lies none the less.
I have fornicated in the not so distant past.
I have been guilty of corrupt communication.
I have been bitter and angry, and allowed myself to be provoked to some degree of wrath.
I have a bit of a cussing demon, which usually rears it's head in conjunction with wrath.
I have been unkind, even recently, in my words and actions.

Having confessed those things here, I am asking God to deliver me from the demonic spirits and influences that are hindering my relationship with Him. I am asking Him to make those things that are contrary to His word, distasteful to me. Lord, if it is not mine . . . if it does not edify you, if I can not glorify you with it . . . I don't want it. Help me to die to my flesh, Lord . . . and to accept more readily the reproof that I know is for my perfection. In this confession, I am asking You to help me be a better Christian and as Christ-like as is possible. I am asking for a relationship with you, Lord.

See, that's the ultimate goal. "That" being an honest and personal relationship with God, where I trust Him and He trusts me.

I apologize to those of you who I have lied on, or lied to. I don't know that any of my lies were ever malicious or told with ill intent . . . but the path to hell is paved with good intentions.

I apologize to those of you who I have fornicated with, because I didn't help your soul any more than I helped my own . . . and I care for your soul. I ask God now to break those spiritual bonds that were tied by that physical act, and I pray for your deliverance as I pray for my own.

I apologize to those of you whose pity parties I joined when I should have been encouraging you with The Word. When you were negative, hurting or discouraged, God put you in my path and I did not help you.

I forgive those of you who wronged me, and ask your forgiveness in turn. Further I apologize for having been angry with you, for having spoken ill of or to you, and I apologize for those things that I did and said in an effort to make myself feel better . . . or to make you feel worse.

So there it is . . .
My confession, and my next step toward salvation.